Episode 47

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5th Dec 2024

November Reflections for Body, Soul & Spirit

#47: On today’s episode, I’m going to do an November recap of what has been supporting me in my body, soul and spirit. I get a little vulnerable on this episode and share my emotional journey over the past five and a half years, touching on themes of grief, isolation, and the struggle for connection.

These are just a few of the things I will be sharing. I hope this episode inspires and encourages you to do your own reflection. 

Let's go to the show.

Key Take-aways:

  • 07:40 - Reflections on Life Choices
  • 13:00 - Finding Calm in Nature
  • 19:22 - Navigating Change and Isolation
  • 24:18 - Navigating Seasons of Change
  • 34:25 - The Journey of Grief and Healing
  • 39:21 - Embracing Change: The Journey of Branding and Inspiration

Resources:

Heavenly Position Guidance Challenge:

For this week’s HPS Challenge, take out your journal and spend at least 15 minutes in a quiet space if possible. Take some time to reflect on the month of November for yourself and your three parts, body, soul and spirit and the makeup of each area.

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Transcript
Angie Robertson:

I'm Angie Robertson and you're listening to the Spirit Led Life podcast, episode 47.

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On today's episode, I am going to do a November recap of what has been supporting me in my body, soul and spirit.

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I'll be sharing things like what journaling has been doing this past month, what a walk on the beach has done, and also something that I recently read that has impacted me in a season of life that I have been experiencing for the last five and a half years.

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And this has really helped me to embrace this season rather than struggle with it.

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These are just a few of the things I'll be sharing and I hope this episode inspires and encourages you to do your own reflection.

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Let's go to the show.

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Welcome back to the show.

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On this podcast we explore who God is so we can know who he has made us to be and learn how to live our lives by the Holy Spirit.

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For those of you who are new here, or maybe you haven't listened to a reflection episode before.

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Back in episode five, we learned that we are made of three parts, body, soul, and spirit.

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And each of those parts has three parts for the body, its speech, the five senses, and action.

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Our soul is made up of our mind, will and emotions, and our spirit is made up of our conscience, fellowship, and intuition.

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And at the beginning of each month, I reflect back on the previous month on what has supported me in each of those areas.

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So we're going to dive in and talk about that.

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But before we do, while you are listening to this podcast, if you are able to, if you're not driving, I want you to look at your podcast player and look and see where you can click the follow link.

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If you can go ahead and click that.

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If you aren't currently following this podcast, I want to invite you to do so also.

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You can also share this podcast with those that you know might benefit from learning how to live by the Holy Spirit a little bit more and have a little more of the Holy Spirit's guidance in our lives.

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Who doesn't need that?

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So please share this podcast when you like and share.

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And even when you leave a comment on the podcast and like you rate the podcast, it helps others to find it and I really, truly appreciate it.

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We are in the process of building this community out and I want more and more of you to bring your friends, bring your family and invite them to join us because I love getting in your ears every week and being able to connect with you.

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And then also through the Journaling with Jesus gatherings that we have that's another way for us to actually get face to face.

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So you'll learn more about that later.

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But I just want to take this opportunity to thank you for liking and sharing and supporting this podcast.

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It means so much to me.

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So let's get started and begin with the body.

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Here is what supported me in November, starting with the five senses.

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In the last reflection for October, I shared that I'm doing a whole new dental routine and it's a more holistic, natural way to take care of my teeth.

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And that's going great.

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By the way, just to update you, it's been a month now and it's been going really well and I've seen a significant difference in my teeth and my gums and I'm going to continue with the process until I visit my dentist, which won't be until like February of next year.

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So I'll let you know even more then how what they say it's doing.

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But I can certainly definitely tell a difference and it's helped tremendously.

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This company that I'm using to get some of my cleaning supplies, if you will, for my teeth from is called Living Libations and I'll be sure to link to them in the show notes.

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When I went to their site to buy some of the tooth powders and the serums and things like that for my teeth, I found one for your eyes.

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It's called Open Sky Eye Serum.

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And I bought it because I've been dealing with a lot of eczema on my eyes.

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I get that from time to time as I've grown up, you know, but it's been really bad the last several months and I went to my eye doctor, she prescribed some cream, some ointment and it's not doing anything for it.

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I mean it a little bit, but nothing.

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I've gotten some, you know, over the counter eczema cream and that helped a little bit, but still not so I thought I'm going to give this a try.

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It's all natural, it's botanical oils, things like thyme oil and lavender and Blue Tinsy and all these great, fantastic essential oils are in it and I'm going to give it a try.

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So I bought the oil and I've been using it and it has been amazing and I love it.

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I still have a little bit of eczema I'm dealing with, but it is, it is gone, is far better than what it has been.

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But the extra benefit that I've seen from it is, you know, I'm 53, I have a lot of fine lines around like under my eyes especially my dark circles are prominent.

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I've always had dark circles.

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I don't even try to hide it as much anymore because it's just.

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It is what it is.

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And I have tried all the concealers and all the things but this, this Open sky oil, which again, I'll link to it, I.

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And I'm not sponsored by them, I'm not getting paid by them, I'm not an affiliate.

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I am just simply sharing it because I have seen is in my 53 years of taking care of my skin and I am very.

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I wash my face in the morning and I wash my face in the evening.

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I use all the things.

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I have taken my care of my skin since I was, gosh, probably in junior high.

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My mom drilled it into me to take care of my skin.

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I have noticed a significant difference in the lines under my eyes using this oil.

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It has been amazing.

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So much so that the Living Libations company, they actually do consultations, free consultations.

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You can schedule an appointment with one of their experts, their skincare experts or whatever.

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They sell all kinds of things.

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It's not just skin care.

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They sell body care, skin care, oral care, you name it, they sell it anyway.

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So I scheduled an appointment with one of their specialists to find out what else I could be using on my face because it's a little overwhelming.

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When you go to their site, they have so many different serums and oils and things and I wasn't sure which would be best for me.

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So I scheduled an appointment with them, told them what my concern areas are, what I want to accomplish with my skin care and they were able to give me a regimen that actually is really simple.

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It's not complicated at all.

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And so I've ordered the things and I.

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I have not gotten them yet to try them, but I'm sure in my December.

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Although we might do a little different December reflection.

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But anyway, I'll get to that.

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I will be sure to share as well how that's going.

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But any.

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The Open sky serum for my eyes has been amazing.

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I can't wait to see what the other serums will be doing for my face.

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So I'm excited about that.

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So that is for my five senses and actually it really is because it's not only is it helping my skin and improving my skin, but the smell is amazing.

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I absolutely love the smell of the serum, the oils.

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Oh, it's so amazing.

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So again, I'll be sure to link to it.

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All right, moving on to action.

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Dave and I took a belated 25 year anniversary trip.

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I think I've talked about this several times now, but we had originally scheduled to take a cruise.

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That cruise got booked up.

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Then we decided we were going to go to Asheville, North Carolina because we, that was one of our very first trips we ever took together.

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Even before we got married.

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We took a trip to Asheville.

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And I've heard people say that if you travel together before you get married, then you should.

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Your marriage would survive or anything.

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If you can survive a travel, you can survive anything.

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And so I had a great time on our trip.

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But anyway, we decided maybe we would go back to Asheville and kind of relive that experience.

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And then of course, the hurricane came through and devastated that area.

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So that trip was out.

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And then on our anniversary, our cat sitter was out of town.

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So we couldn't take a trip the week of our anniversary.

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And we finally was able, we were able to get the cat sitter a date.

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And that was in November, like mid part of November.

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We were able to get away.

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So we ended up going to St.

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Augustine Beach.

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Surprise, surprise.

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This is our third time going there this year.

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But we love the area.

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I mean, we lived in Jacksonville for 11 years.

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We were 20 miles south of.

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No, north.

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Excuse me.

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We were 20 miles north of St.

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Augustine.

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So we visited there all the time.

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And then if we had family come into town or friends come into town, we would play tourists and take them to St.

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Augustine.

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It's a beautiful.

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It's the oldest city in our nation and it's absolutely beautiful.

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If you ever get a chance to go, I highly recommend it.

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You won't be disappointed.

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It is a lovely city.

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It's kind of Spanish in style, which may be why I'm so drawn to it.

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I was born in Spain.

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I'm not Spanish.

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My dad was in the Navy.

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I was born in Spain.

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And I just, I'm so drawn to the Spanish culture.

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So anyway, we went there and we did a little different trip.

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We stayed a little further out of St.

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Augustine proper.

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So we stayed in a town called Vilano beach.

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And we stayed in a house that was right on the marsh.

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And the house was.

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Okay, I'm not going to link to it, I'm not going to talk about it because there's an influencer on Instagram that, you know, I follow her or used to follow her.

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And I remember when she redid this house.

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And so I had high expectations going to the house, but I was really disappointed with the house.

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But again, I'm not going to.

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I'm not.

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I'm not going to badmouth somebody's business.

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That's just not good business.

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But the view of the house and where it was situated made up for any of the faults of the house itself.

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It was right on the marsh.

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And Jacksonville area has really extreme tides, so you can have a five.

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A four to five foot tide.

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So when the tide goes out, it takes basically all the water with it to where you see the land of the, you know, at the bottom of the water.

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And then when it brings it back, it brings it back.

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When those tides would go out, all the waterfowl, so egrets, cranes.

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We had storks.

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We had what were called.

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I think they're called rosette spoonbills.

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I don't know if that's how you say it, but they're like.

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They're pink spoon bill birds.

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I originally thought they were flamingos, but then when we looked at them, they had the spoon bill beak.

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And then I looked it up and noticed that it.

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It's.

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They're actually called rosette spoonbills because of the color.

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They're more.

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They can go from, like a deep magenta color to a light pink color.

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All kinds of birds.

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We have herrings, all the things, everything.

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And I'm.

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I mean, they would come in, dozens of them whenever the water would go out so that they could eat all the crustaceans and things and feed.

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It was amazing.

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Beautiful sunsets, beautiful weather.

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The weather was absolutely perfect.

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We had an amazing time.

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And one day we went for a walk on the beach because we weren't.

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We were literally within walking distance.

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The ocean was across the street.

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So we would walk down the street where we were at and go across the highway and go on the beach.

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And we only got to walk one day because just our schedule and things we were doing.

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And then the weather, the rain.

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There was a rain day one day and things.

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So we decided to go for a walk on the beach.

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And it just did my body good.

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And like, anytime I grew up on the beach, the water, the ocean, the waves has always been a calming rhythm to my life.

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And anytime I needed to go think or just be, I would just go walk to the beach.

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We, my mom and I, we lived in an apartment that was across the street from the ocean.

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And I know that sounds like, ooh, bougie.

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But believe me, it wasn't bougie.

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We weren't.

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We weren't bougie at all.

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It's just where we were living was very like the beach closed down.

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It was a very touristy town.

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And we just have to happen to live within walking distance.

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And I'm grateful for it.

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I mean, that was one of the many blessings I had in my life.

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But I would just go walk on the beach or journal on the beach or whatever.

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And it was nice to go and walk and stick my feet in the water, albeit they were.

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It was freezing, the water was cold.

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It kind of went away after a while because just feeling the water and the sand in my toes and hearing the rhythmatic waves and the sun beating on my face, it really recharged me.

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And I needed that.

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And the most amazing way possible, I needed that recharge.

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So I really.

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The walking on the beach was my action for no for November.

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Moving on to speech.

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In October, I launched Journaling with Jesus, which are these zoom gatherings that we get together.

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I invite you, it's free to anybody.

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And I hold them once a week.

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They're not recorded.

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They're times for us to gather together, be in the presence of God and just have a moment to breathe.

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Which one of the participants actually said that?

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She said it was nice to just step away for one hour.

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And it wasn't even.

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Sometimes it's an hour, sometimes it's less than, it's 30 minutes.

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It just depends on how many people show up on the.

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On the actual gathering.

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It was night.

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She said it was nice to step away for one hour to get in the presence of God and just be in his presence and have a moment to breathe.

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That was her words.

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And I loved that because I felt the same way.

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And that's exactly what I'm doing.

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I'm inviting you in for just to step away from your life for just an hour and get into the presence of God and actually commune with Him.

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So we have a time of being able to practice and commune with him.

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And you get a chance to journal.

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You have 10 minutes to journal.

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It doesn't sound like a lot of time, or it may sound like a lot of time to you, I'm not sure.

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But it's a perfect amount of time for you to really connect with God and communicate with Him.

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And I love these calls.

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Like I've led several so far.

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We try to do them once a week and I vary the times of days that we offer them to meet everybody's schedule.

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And you can register for all the calls, or you can register for none of the calls, or you can register for a few of the calls.

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Really all I ask is that you just show up.

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Because we don't record the calls.

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They're not recorded so you can't register and get the recording for later.

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I actually am holding the space for everybody to attend and be on these calls live and really have a moment to be in a safe space where they can breathe.

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And so recording would just ruin that ambiance, if you will.

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You can go to journalingwithjesus.com if you are interested and you can pick a date that works for you and sign up.

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If they all work for you, feel free to sign up.

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Like I said, I try to stagger the times.

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I'm doing them in the mornings, afternoons, evenings and just kind of staggering them.

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So the only time I won't do calls is during holiday weeks like Thanksgiving week or we didn't do one and I won't be doing one the week of Christmas or the week of New Year's.

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But other than that, I've been trying to do them every week.

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So I would love for you to join us again.

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It's a way for us to come together as a community and we have two way communication.

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Instead of me just being in your ears, you actually get to commune with me as well, which I love.

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Now moving on to Seoul.

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So for my mind, sitting on the dock and watching the sunset was huge because I feel like I have been going and going and going for.

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When we lived in Jacksonville, at the end of the day, everybody would come out and we would gather in somebody's driveway.

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Whether it was our driveway, our neighbors across the street, our neighbor down the road, whatever.

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Every single day we would come out of our houses and we would all gather or people would be coming home from work and we would sit in a driveway and we would just chit chat, we'd have a cocktail, we'd share snacks, we'd share stories, we'd laugh, we'd have fun.

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It was just a great time.

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And it was a way for me to decompress from work, especially working at home.

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I needed that shift and that socialization and nobody was looking at their phones.

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Nobody brought their phones.

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Really.

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It was amazing time for us just to be and just have be in the present moment.

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Now that we've moved to Tallahassee, it has been very different.

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Our neighborhood doesn't operate that way.

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Nobody comes out of their house.

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We've tried several, several times and then I'll keep trying, but nobody really comes out.

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Nobody really sits in the driveway, nobody does anything.

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And Dave and I work at home and we don't really get that socialization or away time from the screens like we used to.

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We try to be more intentional about that, but it's really hard when you're at the house and all your technology is there.

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When we went on this trip, we spent less time on our screens.

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And one evening in particular, it was the last.

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I think it was the last night we were there.

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We decided to just.

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We had gone earlier that day and picked up something for dinner so that we didn't have to go out that night.

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The weather was beautiful.

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It had just rained earlier that day.

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We decided, you know, it was getting sunnier as the day went on.

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We decided we were just going to sit on the dock, have a cocktail, or in my case, a mocktail, and just watch the sunset.

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And that's what we did.

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I did bring my phone only to take pictures, but I really intentionally made sure I didn't pick my phone up and looked at Instagram or emails or texts or whatever.

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And I only picked up my phone to take a sunset, which I took some incredible sunsets.

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And I'll have to share them in the newsletter.

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That was a respite for my mind to just watch nature.

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And the tide had gone out, so all the birds were coming in to feed.

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Watching the sunset, watching sailboats way off in the distance in the deeper waters go by, listening to the birds call to each other and cackle and be territorial.

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I needed that break in my mind.

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It was lovely to just be.

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And I know that Dave and I, we go for walks.

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We intentionally go for walks.

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We intentionally sit on a bench at the park that we walk at so that we can have that clear mind.

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But this was an extra layer.

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It just reminded me of those times when we would go sit in the driveway of our neighbor's house and just be the moment for my will.

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I'm going to be a little vulnerable here.

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The last five and a half years have been really challenging for me.

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They've been a struggle, a big, big struggle for me between moving to a new city, Dave's cancer, being in a city where we don't know anybody, and I know God moved us here, and trying to hold on to that and knowing that there's a purpose for us being here, but also feeling the depths of loneliness, especially when Covid hit.

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I mean, we already work at home.

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ou know, since, for me, since:

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And for Dave, I think it was:

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So when everything locked down and shut down, it wasn't too much of a Stretch for us because we were already working out of the house and already isolated, if you will.

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But we had friends.

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Like I said, we had an amazing neighborhood.

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I thank God for that neighborhood every single day.

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I don't think we would have been sane if we didn't have that neighborhood.

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And for the better part of my business, we lived in an amazing neighborhood.

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And before that, when I were.

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The neighborhood we were in when I first started my business, again, amazing neighbors.

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We had family there.

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Definitely different dynamics since we've been here with all of that.

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And then compound Covid and the lockdown and not really being able to get out.

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So we're even further isolated than what we already were.

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Working at home is taking a toll on me mentally, emotionally, spiritually, and I've tried really hard not to and reframe and really look at it differently.

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One thing that I will say is, during all of this, my communication with God is greater and stronger than it ever has been.

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I communicate with him more than I ever have in my entire walk with Jesus.

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My trust in my experience of God, which I've talked about that before, how most of my life, my Christian walk, my faith walk with Jesus, I allowed the church to tell me how I should think, feel, behave as a Christian.

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And I never trusted my own experience of God and my own what I felt like, how I experienced God.

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And that was something that I have really embraced in these last five and a half years.

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I have extremely embraced it.

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This podcast is part of that.

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It's a overflow of that, if you will.

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All that to say, while it's been an amazing growth in my learning of who God is, it's also been a growth period of finding out more of who he made me to be.

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And it's been an amazing journey.

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That part has been amazing.

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The external, I guess, social part, if you will, has been what's been a challenge.

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And add to it that Dave and I both have strained relationships with our family.

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My mom and I haven't spoken in several years now.

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I haven't seen her, and it'll be 10 years in December.

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So I'm being very vulnerable here.

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It is definitely not by my choice at all.

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I have reached out and reached out and there's, you know, I mean, this is where I have to release and allow God to handle that situation.

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And he knows what's best.

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And I've definitely communicated with him about it and I've definitely received an answer from him and what to do and how to approach it.

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All I can do is continue to Pray for her and just be open and loving and willing and like ready and available for when the day does come that we do connect again.

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And with that lack of family and as we're aging and getting older and our own family didn't come together like we thought, it has really been playing on my mind the last five and a half years.

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It has been a struggle.

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And I started this podcast and then I, you know, you start something like this, it's, it's something completely different outside of what the work I've been doing for the last 22 years.

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And it's new and I am learning and God is showing me.

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And this is something I know that God has called me to do.

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And I question it still.

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I think I talked about this on an episode before of considering quitting, and I've referenced Mary Morantz many times before on this podcast.

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I don't know her personally, I just follow her.

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And she has some very prolific things to say and prophetic things to say, if you will, sometimes.

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And she recently posted something that said how to trust a hidden season.

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And that intrigued me.

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And I was like a hidden season because I feel like I'm in a season for sure.

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I'm in a season.

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So I decided to read the post.

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I mean, I've literally just read this, so I am still processing it, but it has helped tremendously for me to look at this season of my life in a completely different way.

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And I'm not going to read all of it, but I'll be sure to link to it so that you can read it for yourself.

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But I'll just hit some highlights of what stood out to me.

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One of the first things she said is before every new level, there is a time of preparation.

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She said that some of the best things that ever happened to her were often preceded by some of the hardest years of her life.

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A time of isolation, dry seasons, loss of friendships, and burnout.

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And when I read that, that hit to the core of my being because that is exactly the way that I've been feeling.

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I feel isolated.

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I feel like I'm in a dry season in some respects.

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Not every area, clearly in this podcast, I feel like we're God is really pouring out of me to you.

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I've had loss of family and I've had experienced burnout.

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I experienced burnout from my previous vocation, which was my virtual assistant business.

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Definitely felt burnt out from that.

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I was.

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There wasn't even a word for how burnt out I was on that particular profession.

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Like, I loved what I was doing.

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And I think I went, you know, there's that saying, you've overstayed your welcome.

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I completely overstayed my welcome in that business, mainly because of the fact that it was a security for me.

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It was secure, it was reliable, I could count on it.

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I could depend on it.

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Or so I thought.

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Like, really?

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No, it was God.

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And then that's when I started to realize it wasn't the business, it was God sustaining me and shifting the gratitude and the realization to who was doing it not.

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And taking it off my own might, if you will.

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It wasn't my will, it was God's will.

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And thank God he sustained me.

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And thank God he met me where I was at and where my faith was at at the time.

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I'm grateful for that.

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So this was a reminder to me that doing this podcast, it's at.

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It's a new level.

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And there is a time of preparation, and I have to have that time of preparation.

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And these last five years have been that preparation for this moment.

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And she.

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Her.

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One of her other slides was being set apart often means walking alone.

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And she says when she found herself alone, oftentimes what ended up happening was that she found herself.

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And that is exactly what has happened to me during these last five and a half years, is I've been discovering who God made me to be.

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And I didn't know that.

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And I didn't know that he could love me if I just for me, not because I had a virtual assistant business, not because I was the wife to David Robertson, not because I was a daughter or a sister or a friend or someone that does some work at volunteer work at the church or someone who, you know, helps a neighbor.

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He loves me for just me, not the things I do, just me.

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Now she goes on to talk about how this is a time to put in your reps and build muscle memory and how the work that you do during these.

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The season is what helps you to become stronger and to be able to stand out more.

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And she said that the first time she ever spoke at a conference, there was 12 people who showed up.

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And the following year it was standing room only.

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She said what happened during that 12 months is that she kept showing up and kept speaking.

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And that's what I've been doing with this podcast.

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While I don't have millions of listeners and I don't know if I ever will, it would be great because I want God's word out there.

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I want God's work out there.

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I don't know what he has how many people that means that's for him.

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But I want to keep showing up consistently.

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One of the other things she says is that if you find yourself in a hidden season, a time when nothing you say is getting through or nothing seems to be working, ask yourself what it would look like to rest well instead.

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That is the part that I have been missing during this five and a half years.

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A lot of times when I start to spin and spiral a little bit like, oh my God, I'm going to be like this for the rest of my life.

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I'm going to be alone the rest of my life.

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A lot of times the Holy Spirit will say, you need to enjoy this time now because you'll wish you would have later.

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And I know, I know this from experience in my life.

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There was a time where I was unemployed and I was so I struggled so much during that time when I was unemployed.

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I felt like I needed to find a job.

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I should be working, I've got to contribute, you know, we need the money, all those things.

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And looking back, I wish I would have just enjoyed that moment and enjoyed that time because it went away fast and then I was busy and then the next thing you know, I was wishing that I had that time back.

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That is something that I try to remind myself of and it's gotten, it's something that it was nice to read that and remind myself, yes, I need to enjoy this time right now.

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So she goes on and I'll let you, I'll link to it.

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But those were the things that stood out to me in that post.

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A definite something that I needed and for my will to know that like while I, my will is saying, oh my gosh, you need to do something, you need to fix this, you need to step in.

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That is not the place I want to be at and I don't want to get into that place.

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We can always, I always remind myself of Sarah when she wanted a child so desperately that she decided to have Abraham take on her maidservant.

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And then we know, we all know how well that went.

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And if you haven't read that story, be sure to go check that story out because you will see I don't want to be in that place of taking things matters into my own hand.

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I don't want to do that.

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And that is so human nature of us to take, try to take things out of God's hands and into our own hand instead of just embracing the season that he has me in right now.

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And know that he, you know, you know, you know, you hear the things and you know, intellectually, but it's not really helping you, your will and your emotions to kind of align up with that.

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So that was very helpful for my will.

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Kind of along those same lines.

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Moving on to emotions again, I read a couple of posts, a post from Mary Marantz and Emily Freeman, which, again, you know, I love Emily Freeman, and Emily Freeman wrote a post and it said, when we fail to mourn properly our incomplete lives, then this incompleteness becomes a gnawing, restless, bitter center that robs our lives of all delight.

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All honeymoons die.

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But the upside is that God is always giving us something richer, deeper life and fuller spirit.

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And that's a quote from Ronald Rolheiser, I think is how you say his name.

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And then it wasn't long after that that I read this quote from Mary Marantz.

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And she says, one of the things you'll have to do before you can change your story moving forward is to grieve the story you thought you would be living by now.

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That grief of how you thought things would turn out, the regret for every mistake, wrong turn and long way around.

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They don't have to be carried like a heavy burden if you'll let them.

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They can be a roadmap pointing you to the person you are becoming.

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Yes, a perfect version of you could have gotten here faster, but this version of you had to stop first to heal.

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And I thought that was so interesting that both of those messages were kind of around the same time.

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What I found interesting in that was about, like, grieving and the importance of grieving.

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And I loved how Mary Morant said grieving what you thought would be.

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And I think that's a little bit of what I've been kind of going along with what I was just talking about in my will and what that post was that Mary was sharing was that there is.

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There was a level of grief that I had to go through in these last five and a half years of what would be like.

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I thought we would have a family.

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I thought, you know, I never knew that I would have things that were taken away when Dave had cancer.

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And we can't kiss like we used to kiss.

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We don't have the same enjoyment with food, or he doesn't have the same enjoyment with food that he used to have, which was one of our.

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We were foodies, we love food.

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There was just a lot of things that I had to grieve and let go of.

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And I think these last five and a half years, what were it Was a time for me to grieve, to be able to say, okay, my life isn't what I thought it was going to be at this point in my life.

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But it's not to say that it's not good.

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And I'm still processing some of that grief, I believe, which is where the loneliness comes in and the things.

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But I have to process these things, otherwise I'm not going to be able to move on.

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So, again, another message that was just very pivotal for me and something that I'm.

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I'm processing in my emotions is that grief of the things that I thought would be where they are and they're not.

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Well, we have covered body and soul.

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Kind of gotten a little deep and heavy.

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I told you I was going to be a little vulnerable.

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Hope you don't mind.

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So now let's move into spirit.

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So for my conscience, the journaling with Jesus and how God has been speaking to me during those sessions, we have 10 minutes to journal.

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And you can turn your camera off, you can mute yourself.

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I play a little music in the background, and I put on a timer and I'm, you know, nobody sees a timer.

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I just put it on so I can keep track.

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And we take 10 minutes to journal, and it can be whatever you want.

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You can journal a gratitude list.

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You can journal a dialogue with Holy Spirit.

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You can journal a vision that God's given you.

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Whatever it is, whatever God's leading you to do, it's a.

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It's a moment for you to be in his presence.

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And for me, during those times, I'm journaling and I'm actually having a dialogue with God.

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So, like, one of the sessions that we had, one of the gatherings that we had, God actually gave me something that he wanted me to share with the ladies.

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So I wrote down what he said to me and then I shared it with him.

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Other times, he's just dialogued with just me, and it's something personal that he, you know, it's been nice to have that time even for myself, even though I.

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Every morning I have time.

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Sometimes I'm either, you know, reading or reading past entries or reading an email that I got, you know, a devotional, whatever it is.

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Sometimes I don't necessarily journal every single morning.

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So it's been nice to know that, you know, I'm going to have this time that dedicated with God, and it's been amazing.

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Moving on to fellowship, again with the journaling with Jesus gatherings, it's hearing the feedback I shared earlier about the feedback of one of the Participants and how she said that it was a moment for her to breathe and be in the presence of God and just be in the actual present moment of time and not be thinking about, like turning off her brain about her to do list.

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Because when we start the sessions, I actually do a little bit of a meditation and I have you close your eyes and we kind of go do a body check and see where you're holding tension and releasing that.

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Then we do a prayer where we ask, invite the Holy Spirit in.

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Then we do a little scripture reading, and I give you some questions that you might want to ponder and consider and contemplate.

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And then we go into our journaling time together.

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I love the feedback that I'm getting of how people are experiencing it.

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And it's been a refresher and they leave refreshed, which is amazing.

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And I love.

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So again, just the.

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For the fellowship, just being with you all and being in that place and being able to connect and see you on the other side of the screen.

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Instead of me just talking kind of into this right now, a pillow is in front of me so that it deadens the sound.

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So instead of looking at a pillow and talking to it, I actually get to see your face, which I absolutely love.

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So I'm loving the fellowship of these.

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Journaling with Jesus.

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Please, please, please.

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I invite you to join us.

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You can go to journalingwithjesus.com to sign up for any date or time that works for you or all of them.

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Finally, for my intuition, I got super inspired in November to redo the Spirit Led Life podcast website and my angerobertson.com website.

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And I was able to completely revamp them, redesign them, make them much more attractive, easy to navigate, much more visually appealing.

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I will say this, the photos that I used are what I have on hand.

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They're.

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It's an older photo shoot, but I am in the process of doing a new photo shoot, and part of me struggled with redoing these websites, but I felt inspired by the Holy Spirit, so I went with it.

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And I can always change the images out later, at least the foundations there.

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But it does have older images of me.

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I mean, I look pretty much the same.

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The only thing is just my hair is a little browner and grayer, but otherwise I'll look the same in them.

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So I did use older images.

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But like I said, my goal is I've got.

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I got inspired to do a complete brand shoot, which the photos that are on the sites now are from when I had an inspiration last Time, which kind of goes along with what I was saying earlier about being in the season and how God's preparing me.

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I remember during that time being in a different season and all of a sudden I got inspired to do a brand photo shoot.

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And I didn't know that the photos I took that day were like a year or two before I actually launched my book.

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And I ended up using that, one of the photos from that shoot on the COVID of the book.

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And it was absolutely perfect for the title of the book, the Beauty in Letting Go.

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And I'm holding balloons.

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And God inspired me to do a photo shoot with balloons.

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I don't know why.

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I just was so.

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It was like drawn to get the balloons and I went and bought the balloons and it worked out perfect and I absolutely loved the shoot.

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So I've got another inspiration to do another photo shoot.

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So I'm in the process of getting kind of some of the supplies and things like that.

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So I'm hoping and love would love to do it at the first of the year, if not sooner.

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Were kind of coming up to the year of the podcast and I'd like to do the next year in a different brand, if you will.

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Getting this, these websites done gave me the foundation.

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So all I have to do is just change out photos.

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And I already know the photos I want to take.

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I've already done a Pinterest board, pinned them on there.

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I probably use the same photographer I used for the other photo shoot.

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And so I last time I sent her my Pinterest board so she could see the type of shots I was wanting to capture.

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And then I gotta just get the different props that I need.

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So I'm very excited about it.

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But anyway, love the new sites.

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I personally enjoyed doing them.

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I did run into a little snafu with one of them because I'm using.

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I'm actually using Canva for the websites.

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Probably not the most ideal, but I love how easy Canva is to do websites.

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Way easier than WordPress.

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I was using Mailerlite, which is my platform that I use to deliver emails.

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I had my websites through there, but it was very limiting on the design and the templates and I didn't really like them.

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Canva gave me so much, so much more freedom in design.

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I went with Canva and I'm not.

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I don't regret it.

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But in the back end, it's not the most, it's not the best.

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So I ran into a little snafu with links and then I had to go change like 50 pages for links.

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So anyway, but I'm very happy so check them out.

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I'd love your feedback and want to know what you think about the websites.

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Go to spirit led life podcast.com and then you can also go to angierobertson.com and it's a N G E E Robertson R O B E R t s o n.com check out the sites.

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I would love to know what you think.

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Hit me up on social media.

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You can hit me up on Instagram at Angie W.

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Robertson or if you subscribe to the weekly email that I send out, reply to one of those emails and you can sign up for the emails if you aren't on the list by going to spiritledlifepodcast.com or Angie Robertson.com and you'll see where you can subscribe and be able to receive those emails.

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And I share things in those emails that I don't share anywhere else.

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So even here on the podcast.

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So I'd love to have you join us.

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That's where you can also get information about the upcoming journaling with Jesus calls as well.

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Well, there you have it.

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What supported me Body, Soul and Spirit for the month of November for this week's Heavenly Position System Challenge.

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As always, we're taking out those journals and you could even come to a Journaling with Jesus session and do your own reflection on the month of November for yourself and the three parts your body, soul and spirit and the makeup of each of those.

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My hope for this episode is it drew you a little bit closer to God and understanding and accepting yourself.

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More I will end today's episode with some excerpts from a Loop for Women with Gatherer Ministries and Jennifer Camp.

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You know, I reference her a lot.

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I'm not going to read the whole post that she sent out.

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I'm just going to read some things that stood out to me and I thought this message was very timely given that I just read the things that I've read to you from Mary Morantz and Emily Freeman.

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It seems like a recurring thing that God is trying to drill into my head and maybe this might be helpful for you.

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It says you don't have to figure out how to make this day special, how to make it worth something.

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It's okay to rest, so stay with me and I will equip you for more.

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Stay with me and I will pour into you vision and wisdom and the steps one by one as you watch where my feet fall.

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You cannot go anywhere until you know where I am with you and how with me it is always best for you to stay for then we can go and you won't have to have a bit of it figured out.

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My daughter.

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To God be the glory.

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Thank you for joining me on today's episode.

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This episode was produced, recorded and edited by me, Angie Robertson.

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I look forward to joining you each Thursday for a new episode as we explore together how to have a spirit led life.

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Spirit Led Life
What if you were sure of the next step you should take in life? Not doubting for a moment. What if you were confident in who you are and how you show up in this world? What if you could have love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control?

Join host Angee Robertson as she shares her journey as well as others on how we can be led by the Holy Spirit all day, every day even in the most mundane. You’ll discover that in a world that is overloaded with information, opinions and judgements, we have a comforter that can quiet the noise and bring us peace and assurance. You’ll begin to have more confidence in hearing and knowing God’s voice, trusting decisions you make and how God made a one of a kind you, not to be duplicated!
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Angee Robertson

The summer of my senior year in high school, I accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior. As I approached my twenties, I was wondering what my purpose was and what I should be doing. As I entered my 30s, I felt as if God was calling me to entrepreneurship and started my own company.

After a few years of running my company, I started searching again for my purpose. I was working 7 days a week, 15-hours a day. I started questioning, "is this all there is?" I felt like I had missed the secret to life. Little did I know, I had.

After over a decade of running my company at the same pace and with two failed pregnancies, I hit my knees and begged God to help. I knew along the way I had left Him out of the equation of my life.

God did send me someone an amazing mentor who taught me how to operate my business by God's grace rather than my grind. In fact, I could operate every area of my life this way. One key was by co-partnering with God.

It was during this time I learned to tap in to the power of the Holy Spirit that resides in followers of Christ. This was the missing secret to life I had been searching for all those years. Now with the guidance of the Holy Spirit, I can experience His fruits, love, joy, peace, gentleness, kindness, faithfulness, goodness, patience and self-control.

God has called me to share my experience with others so they can tap in to this same resource in every area of life. Join me each week on Spirit Led Life as we explore tapping in to the power of the Holy Spirit residing in followers of Christ.